Yesterday I posted this picture along with a brief discussion regarding my feelings towards valentines day. I explained that I didn’t really care for the idea of hallmark holidays, and that I didn’t want to measure love based on one day. I wanted it to be an everyday thing. What I failed to do - and I failed at miserably, was to practice what I preached.

Yesterday was one of those rotten days. When your world seems to turn upside down, and even the little things seem like really really big things. Between missing my Aunts funeral which I feel terrible about, and a string of issues at the office, I was having a miserable day. And I took it out on H. On Valentines day.

So I deleted my post from yesterday. I deleted it because I didn’t live up to what I wrote + I felt like I was eating my own words. And I am upset with myself for doing it too. Not everyday is going to be a good day, it’s unrealistic to think that way, and in following my journey, it’s just as important to catalogue the tough days as much as the good.